um excuse me but id look cute tied to your bed
A long one this time. It doesn’t encompass everything I’ve been feeling/thinking these past few months, but I wanted to share a little of what’s been going on. I don’t want to generalize what depression is and what it isn’t. But I’ve been through some really awful bouts of it before, and so whenever it feels like depression is creeping up again I’m always, always afraid to call it depression. Because it doesn’t seem that bad. Because even though this morning was bad, right now I feel okay. Maybe I just need to be stronger. I keep doubting, and I end up digging myself into a hole. Even now, even though I always encourage you guys to seek help, I don’t want to, because I don’t think I need it. But for some reason I keep feeling like shit, and I don’t think it should be normal. Right? This can’t be normal. So I’m going to try to see a professional for it, hopefully soon.